Halfway There!

Tomorrow, Christmas Eve, I will be 20 weeks pregnant! I can't believe how fast time is going and I can't wait to meet our precious baby. I am so proud of our little one already! I just love feeling all the kicks and flips inside my belly. We find out in FIVE DAYS if were going to have Lily Cadence or Parker Mason. I will be on the phone all day that day! And yes India I will call you first :). Followed by my mommy and sisters and Josh's family, and Casey of course! Then I will post on Facebook and I will most likely blog about it! AHHHHH! I am so excited to start working on Baby Wright's nursery! And of course to be able to call baby by his/her name! (Apparently baby is excited too! *Kick, kick*)

I really need to get my butt up and start cleaning the house before Joshie gets home so I am gonna cut this one a little short! But in the mean time you guys can check our our wedding pics!!!!!!

Oh and here is a funny little video for all the crappy gifts that everyone is about to receive for the holidays :) Remember to be safe and have a Happy Christmas!

Love and Mistletoe,

Ashley and Lily/Parker

19 Weeks Pregnancy VLOG

Hey guys here is my VLOG. Don't make fun of me. Tell me if I should do this once a week or not. I swear they will get better as I keep doing them. :)

Love and Baby Kicks,

Ashley and Baby Wright :)

Everything Has Changed

Today has been a very somber day. Yesterday our Calvin kitty went to a new home. :'( I was and still am very upset. Advice to any mommies to be, do not give away an animal when you are five months pregnant! I felt like I lost a part of the family.

When I woke up yesterday everything was normal. Calvin was meowing and Chloe was sleeping somewhere. As the day progressed I noticed that I hadn't seen the cats in while so I went downstairs to see what they were doing. When I saw that they were both sleeping I went back upstairs. About an hour later I heard a fight going on downstairs and I thought they were just playing so I didn't think anything about it. Then Chloe ran up the stairs followed by Calvin attacking her! I had never seen him so aggressive, so I call Josh crying and make him come home to separate them. When he got home he told me that we were going to have to give him away since he was hitting an aggressive stage because I was pregnant. I was devastated. I decided to put him up for adoption on craigslist so I could chose who he would go to.

I got over a dozen emails about him but most of them couldn't even spell correctly or wanted them for their child.  I wanted him to go to someone who would take care of him and I didn't want him to be tortured by a child so I kept waiting. Eventually I got an email from someone who sounded amazing! She already had a cat just like Calvin and was looking for him a playmate! She wasn't illiterate and just wanted to give him a good home. So I called her and we arranged a time for her to come over an meet him, if everything went well she would take him home.

At around eight p.m. she came over and he instantly loved her. She loved him as well. They spent a good forty five minutes playing and she told us about her other kitty and said that we could even come visit him if we wanted. So the time came to say our goodbyes. I cried all night, dreamed about him, and cried all morning. It was so quiet this morning without him.

His new mommy (Megghan) told me that she would text me and tell me how the night went. And I woke up to a text. She said that he slept in bed with her all night and he hadn't tried to fight with her other cat. So I guess he is doing ok. She is going to keep me updated and let me know if anything happens. If he does get aggressive I asked her to bring him back to us. I would rather find him a new home so I can keep tabs on him.

I have never been attached to an animal before and it is so sad to watch one leave. I miss him dearly but it was the best decision for our family.

Love and Tears,
Ashley

As Much As I Ever Could

There will never be enough words to express the sadness in my heart for mothers who lose their babies. I know that I would never get over it. Everyday I see a new post about how a child has died or a woman has miscarried and I cant help to feel as if I was losing a piece of my heart. No one deserves to go through such a horrific incident. I know that God doesn't put us through trials that we can't handle but I just do not see how it could happen to such good people. Women who try for years just to bring a biological child into their life do not deserve to have their happiness ripped away. I decided to make this post for those of you who are reading this after a loss and I hope that this poem helps you in some way.

Tiny Angels rest your wings
sit with me for awhile.
How I long to hold your hand,
And see your tender smile.
Tiny Angel, look at me,
I want this image clear....
That I will forget your precious face
Is my biggest fear.
Tiny Angel can you tell me,
Why you have gone away?
You weren't here for very long....
Why is it, you couldn't stay?
Tiny Angel shook his head,
"These things I do not know....
But I do know that you love me,
And that I love you so".

This post is in remembrance of Evie Grace Harrison.
http://threedoodles.blogspot.com/

In Love and Sorrow,
Ashley

A Vision of Hope

So I know I already posted today but I wanted to share this with everyone. This woman is practically my hero! She has helped me through everything! Be prepared to bawl.

Love you guys!
Ashley

Victor Me :)

Everyone always wonders about "The Story of Us" so here it is!!!!!!!

I have a beautiful friend named Dani to thank for my wonderful husband!!!!!!! (She had her second baby yesterday!!!!!! Heres a pic! She is gorgeous!)

So Dani had found a really cool music website called victorme.com. It is a site for Victory Records fans to find new music. She talked me into making an account. A couple of weeks later I had forgotten all about it until I saw Dani talking to someone. I asked her who she was talking to and she replied, "A really cute guy". Uhhhh ok lol. So I checked him out for myself and wow! I was stunned. He wasn't just cute, he was a hottie :). (First pic I saw below).

Danielle wanted me to message him. I'm not usually shy but in this case I was. I read what they were talking about and he seemed super intellectual! Which of course made me like him even more. He was cute, smart, and funny. There was only one downfall, he lived 1100 miles away from me, in Hudson, OH. So I gave up the thought of him. There was just no way that it could work out. I was in Texas and he was in Ohio, how could it? So life went on. I thought about him every now and then but that was it.

So one lonely day I logged into my account. HE HAD SENT ME A MESSAGE! I knew for sure that Dani was behind it all, but I opened it anyways. All it said was, "So I decided to message you.". Really? I was so confused. I thought he was being super cocky and I totally didn't like it. But I messaged him back anyways. We chatted for an hour and I realized that he was just trying to break the ice. Not being a jerk. So we exchanged IM's and started chatting on Yahoo! Messenger.

Months went by of chatting and flirting when we decided to start talking about dating. There were so many good things about him that I loved. He was amazing! He made me feel beautiful and no one had every been able to do that before. There was still that pesky 1100 mile difference though. The good obviously out weighed the bad and we decided to be together.

I was in love. I was tormented by the thought that there was this wonderful man in my life but I never even got  to see him. So we both got webcams. That was amazing! But it still wasn't good enough. The winter, spring, and summer went by and it was almost time for me to start my first year of college. Josh and I talked about it and the night before my freshman orientation at University of North Texas we decided that I was moving to Ohio. I told my family and friends. Everyone thought I was completely crazy. I was going to move five states away with a guy that I had never even met in person.

Plans were made, planes were booked, and bags were packed. And on August 15, 2009 I met the love of my life in the DFW airport for the first time. He didn't say a word when he walked up, just kissed me. (Yes I am now crying..... damn pregnancy hormones.) I knew right away that this was actually going to work out. We left the airport and drove all across Texas saying our hellos and goodbyes to my family and friends. Three days later we were headed to Ohio. I of course cried almost all of the way there because I knew what I was leaving behind. But I also knew what I had to gain. I was about to start a life and a family of my own.

Coming to Ohio was the best decision that I have ever made. I love you babe!

Here is a little video that I made while I was still in Texas.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w5qd2w99cTk


Love and Butterflies,
Ash Bash

I Knew It Would Happen...

Sooner or later India always gets me to do things I don't want to do, like make a blog for instance. But who knows, maybe someone will actually read this. =)

So if you are reading this you probably already know who I am. And for those of you who don't my name is Ashley and I am living in OH-IO, with my husband Joshua and there is currently a child inside of me. Lol. I cannot wait to find out what we are having! Everyone swears its a boy, but Josh and I think that were having a little girl. We find out for sure on December 28th! The names we have picked out are Lilly Cadence and Parker Mason. I'm sure everyone back home in Texas thinks that I am completely crazy for wanting a child so soon but I cant help it.

In October of 2009 I was told that I have poly cystic ovarian syndrome (or PCOS). Having PCOS means that I don't ovulate normally, which in turn means that it is really difficult to get pregnant. Everyone who knows me well knows that all I have ever wanted to be is a mom. So obviously this news was devastating to me and my husband. So we started actively trying to conceive.  I took numerous medications and ended up in the hospital as a result of some of them. After seven months of trying I decided to take a break. The stresses of finding out seven times that we had failed was taking a toll on me. I gained a lot of weight, I was always crying, and it was putting a strain on our relationship because I was never happy.

So I stopped focusing on that and starting focusing on other things, like finding a house! We had been living in an apartment for too long. So I searched high and low for a good deal and finally came across one on none other than the wonderful craigslist.com. It was gorgeous! Newly remodeled, super awesome landlord, lots of yard and we could finally have our own washer and dryer! So we moved in three weeks later on August 20th.  After moving in I felt so relieved, I had something to occupy my time besides "A Baby Story" on TLC. A couple weeks went by and I started to get sick. GREAT! I was hugging the toilet on my birthday! I just knew something was wrong so Josh drove me to the hospital. The doctor came in and did some blood tests and told me that it was probably my gallbladder and that it might have to be removed. I was so upset because in March I had already lost my appendix. So after all the blood tests were done the doctor finally came in and told me what was wrong. I WAS PREGNANT!!!!!!!!!!! You can just imagine the tears. Both Josh and I start sobbing and the doctor looked at us like we were mental. I was so overjoyed at the thought that we had finally done it, without medications, or schedules, or body temperature charts. It just happened!

Leaving the hospital I called everyone I knew and spilled the beans. Everyone was surprised and happy for us. And now four months later, here we are. About to be Christmas and planning a nursery. I couldn't be happier!

Love and Rainbows,
Ash Bash =)